Music, in the past couple of years, has become a major influence in my life. And today was no exception. I had heard both of these songs on shuffle (It's Time- Imagine Dragons and This Moment- Katy Perry) and no less than 5 minutes ago I decided 2014 is going to be the year. The year that things change for the better. The year I'll put myself out there and make memories that will last a lifetime. The year I'll punch my fear in the face and say "challenged accepted." The year I finally (hopefully, fingers crossed people) meet the girl who inspires me every single day. The year I focus on the positive and push away any negativity because I deserve to be happy. I deserve to end everyday with a smile on my face. This is the year I read more books and fall in love with more fictional characters. This is the year I create fictional characters of my own. The year I meet the girl I now call my best friend. The year I stop fretting the little things. The year I realize that I'm not as alone as I think I am. The year I start to appreciate those who are always there. The year I meet some of the awesome members of the DOY team aka some of the most encouraging people I know. 2014 is the year I will embrace the endless possibilities of life. Of where I'll end up someday. Of who I'll say 'I do' to the day I (hopefully) walk down the aisle. Of how I look back on my life when my life is coming to its end.
This post just got really deep, but I'm ready to love me. I've heard so many times that you can't allow someone else to love you in you don't fall in love with yourself first. I'm not looking for a relationship with anyone but me right now. I need to learn that if you let them, people will walk all over you. They'll take advantage of your kindness and leave you with nothing. This is the year I end my self doubt. The year I leave behind my insecurities. You can't be friends with everyone and if they don't show as much interest it's their loss. It's not my fault, I am not to blame. If I'm happy with who I am and how I treat people then that's all that matters, right? The ones who are there through the good and the bad are the ones who are worth my time. Be there for people but don't let them take everything from you because in the end it'll leave you feeling sad and lost.
This is the year I learn to love myself. The year I meet people who inspire me everyday. The year I meet new people. The year I learn to let go.
Never forget the essence of your spark!